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8 in the morning in the Reign and the rain is falling from a grey white sky. A fresh and pure brise is crossing the curtains of my room, silence and piece, in me.

Notebook, paper, pen, I´m writing the thoughts and feelings of this moment. 

She was a beautiful young woman. A kind of woman who stood out in the middle of a crowd, so tremendous was her beauty and distinction. So different from many other women. Her beauty broke and hurt many hearts and souls along the times. 

How did it all start? Your music career? The band? Thoughts on the German radios stations, listening? With your youth friends, school friends?

A voice that gave heart and soul to many people. Thought, strength, power, imagination, desires.

The band, the music, Heavy Metal music, the artwork...

Travels, backstage, concerts, your stories. Cars, trains, planes, lands, countries, motel and hotel rooms. Suites? Lovers, secret places and moments of  love? Hidden loves? Secret mornings, afternoons and nights, momentary and explosive acts?

Did she had any relationship with a member of the band?

"A lot, a lot of love, power and metal."

Well, I think that she's saying, "all".

2026, in her own words and Happy New Year wishes.

How did she manage the relationships at the same time and places?

For 40 days I've work at night and slept all day.

Didn´t got married. But, but she got into troubles. Still is, with the keys in her hand and between the door and the door lock.

She did not have children. Father unknown, her two children look like her and me.

A reason or reasons to not have children? Personal reason? Personal choice and option. Carrier? Any regret and lament?

Douro River

Welcome Home

Love me in black

Dancing with an angel

Take my hand before I go, we'll never be alone Look at all the lucky days and places we have gone Let me say a single word, a million other ways But all I wanna see is now a smile upon your face Like I'm dancing, dancing with an angel Like I'm dancing, never danced before Like I'm dancing, dancing with an angel Like I'm dancing, a dream I'm dancing on Gave my heart into your hands, we are evermore How can I repay you now for all the years and more? All I know so deep inside we will never fade So let me take you by the hand and lead you to the dance Like I'm dancing, dancing with an angel Like I'm dancing, never danced before Like I'm dancing, dancing with an angel Like I'm dancing, a dream I'm dancing on Still, I'm dancing through a dream with an angel I don't wanna lose a part of your heart Still you gave me all the worlds I believe in And I know that we will never part Like I'm dancing, dancing with an angel Like I'm dancing, never danced before Like I'm dancing, dancing with an angel Like I'm dancing, a dream I'm dancing on Like I'm dancing, dancing with an angel Like I'm dancing, never danced before

Let love rain on me

Please, forgive me for calling In the deepest depth of night But I found a million ways That I could try to make things right I wanna bring you magic And sprinkle you with rain And give you more than reasons To take me back again Let love rain on me Like it did before Let love rain on me I can't take it anymore Drown me in the sea and let love rain on me I had walked through miles of desert And drenched them with my tears In these days I've been away from you I've aged a hundred years So please don't keep me waiting Wishing on the stars above Just give me your forgiveness I'll return it with my love Let love rain on me Like it did before Let love rain on me I can't take it anymore Drown me in the sea and let love rain on me Let love rain on me Like it did before I've been through fire I can't take it anymore Drown me in the sea and let love rain on me Let love rain on me Like it did before Let love rain on me I can't take it anymore Drown me in the sea and let love rain on me Let love rain on me Let love rain on me

Temple of love

With the fire from the fireworks up above me With a gun for a lover and a shot for the pain at hand You run for cover in the temple of love You run for another but still the same For the wind will blow my name across this land In the temple of love you hide together Believing pain and fear outside But someone near you rides the weather And the tears he cried will rain on walls As wide as lovers eyes In the temple of love, shine like thunder In the temple of love, cry like rain In the temple of love, hear my calling In the temple of love, hear my name And the devil in black dress watches over My guardian angel walks away Life is short and love is always over in the morning Black wind come carry me far away With the sunlight died and night above me With a gun for a lover and a shot for the pain inside You run for cover in the temple of love You run for another it's all the same For the wind will blow and throw your walls aside With the fire from the fireworks up above With a gun for a lover and a shot for the pain You run for cover in the temple of love I shine like thunder cry like rain And the temple grows old and strong But the wind blows longer cold and long And the temple of love will fall before This black wind calls my name to you no more In the black sky thunder sweeping Underground and over water Sounds of crying weeping will not save Your faith for bricks and dreams for mortar All your prayers must seem as nothing Ninety-six below the wave When stone is dust and only air remains In the temple of love, shine like thunder In the temple of love, cry like rain In the temple of love, hear the calling And the temple of love is falling Down In the temple of love, shine like thunder In the temple of love, cry like rain In the temple of love, hear my calling In the temple of love, hear my name In the black sky thunder sweeping Underground and over water Sounds of crying weeping will not save Your faith for bricks and dreams for mortar All your prayers must seem as nothing Ninety-six below the wave When stone is dust and only air remains The only haven you can trust And the devil in black dress watches over My guardian angel walks away Life is short and love is always over in the morning Black wind come carry me far away With the fire from the fireworks up above With a gun for a lover and a shot for the pain You run for cover in the temple of love Shine like thunder cry like rain And the temple grows old and strong But the wind blows longer cold and long And the temple of love will fall before This black wind calls my name to you no more In the temple of love you hide together Believing pain and fear outside But someone near you rides the weather And the tears he cried will rain on walls As wide as lovers eyes In the temple of love, shine like thunder In the temple of love, cry like rain In the temple of love, hear the calling And the temple of love is falling Down

Lovers?

Any member of the band? Deutsch, foreigner? A friend?

Moon River

Remember Tomorrow

Unchain the colours Before my eyes Yesterday's sorrows Tomorrow's white lies Scan the horizon The clouds take me higher I shall return From out of the- Oh Tears for remembrance And tears for joy Tears for somebody For this lonely boy Out in the madness The all seeing eye Flickers above us To light up the sky Unchain the colours Before my eyes Yesterday's sorrows Tomorrow's white lies Scan the horizon The clouds take me higher I shall return From out of the- Fire, oh Oh-oh, yeah Oh-oh, yeah Oh-oh-oh Oh-oh-oh Oh

White Wedding (Marriage?) brown wedding, lies, bullshit

Hey little sister what have you done Hey little sister who's the only one Hey little sister who's your superman Hey little sister who's the one you want Hey little sister shot gun! It's a nice day to start again It's a nice day for a white wedding It's a nice day to start again Hey little sister what have you done Hey little sister who's the only one I've been away for so long (so long) I've been away for so long (so long) I let you go for so long It's a nice day to start again It's a nice day for a white wedding It's a nice day to start again Take me back home, yeah There is nothin' fair in this world There is nothin' safe in this world And there is nothin' sure in this world And there is nothin' pure in this world Look for something left in this world Start again It's a nice day for a white wedding It's a nice day to start again It's a nice day for a white wedding It's a nice day to start again

Face in the sand

Everybody's waiting for something to happen, Everybody's waiting for something to see Lunatics waitin for bigger disasters, Everybody's waiting for news on TV Winding lives at the end of the spiral, Waiting dictators with their next big thrill Everyone's looking but no one is listening, Everybody wants to be in at the kill I wait for the signs, they tell me true, I see the signs of the end time Everybody's searching but nothing's revealing, Everyone's looking for the reason why Everyone's hoping for life everafter, Everyone's looking at death from the sky Everyone's nightmares are going to happen, Everybody's ripping the mask from their eyes Everyone's praying but no one's believing, Everyone's heroes tell everyone's lies I wait for the signs, they tell me true, I see the signs of the end time So I watch and I wait, and I pray for an answer An end to the strife and the world's misery, but the end never came And we're digging the graves, and we're loading the guns for the kill Can the end be at hand? Is the face in the sand? Future memory of our tragedy Can the end be at hand? Is the face in the sand? Future memory of our tragedy So I watch and I wait, and I pray for an answer An end to the strife and the world's misery, but the end never came And we're digging the graves, and we're loading the guns for the kill Can the end be at hand? Is the face in the sand? Future memory of our tragedy Can the end be at hand? Is the face in the sand? Future memory of our tragedy

Phantom Of The Opera

C'mon yeah 

I've been looking so long for you now You won't get away from my grasp You've been living so long in hiding In hiding behind that false mask And you know and I know that You ain't got long now to last Your looks and your feelings Are just the remains of your past You're standing in the wings There you wait for the curtain to fall Knowing the terror and holding You have on us all Yeah, I know that you're gonna Scratch me and maim me and maul You know I'm helpless From your mesmerizing cat call Uh Keep your distance, walk away Don't take his bait Don't you stray Don't fade away Watch your step, he's out to get you Come what may Don't you stray From the narrow way Uh, uhh I'm running and hiding in my dreams You're always there You're the phantom of the opera You're the devil, you're just out to scare You damaged my mind and my soul It just floats through the air You haunt me, you taunt me You torture me back at your lair

Children?

Some are born to be those of us who lead You hope they're true and fair The ones who really care And some are born to fight everything that's right You see 'em everywhere, oh yeah Some are born to wealth earned by someone else And when their moment comes They take it and they run Some are born to be lonely refugees Their hearts must weigh a ton, oh yeah Children of the night Their dreams are filled with fright They close their eyes and pray to God that help is on the way Heaven help us all be a guiding light To the children of the night You know how it feels, some wounds never heal Scars of yesterday still won't fade away Well, I believe that we could join our hands and be The ones to set them free, oh yeah Children of the night Their dreams are filled with fright They close their eyes and pray to God that help is on the way Heaven help us all be a guiding light To the children of the night Children of the night Their dreams are filled with fright They close their eyes and pray to God that help is on the way Heaven help us all be a guiding light To the children of the night, oh-oh Heaven help us all be a guiding light To the children of the night Some are born to be lonely refugee Their hearts must weigh a ton, oh yeah

Children of the night

Winter Dreams

There's snow on the mountain And fog in the street Flickering candles in the room Hear the church bell ring See the children playing I feel their pure delight And the snow is falling Taking me away Cold winter nights, cold winter dreams Reflecting the sound of my heart, it's my taste of freedom Cold winter nights, cold winter dreams Don't try to tear me apart, cold winter dreams Find myself in peace Warm from underneath Wish you would be here In this magic scene I've escaped from reality Dancing in the snow Cold blue sky gives me The innocence I need Cold winter nights, cold winter dreams Reflecting the sound of my heart, it's my taste of freedom Cold winter nights, cold winter dreams Don't try to tear me apart, cold winter dreams The world seems so clear Like a wonderful diamond Can't imagine there's meanness Can't imagine one lie But when I'm dead and gone And snow's pouring down I'm buried and covered Peaceful under millions of stars Cold winter nights, cold winter dreams Reflecting the sound of my heart, it's my taste of freedom Cold winter nights, cold winter dreams Don't try to tear me apart, cold winter dreams

Can I play with madness

Can I play with madness? 

Give me the sense to wonder 

To wonder if I'm free Give me a sense of wonder To know I can be me Give me the strength to hold my head up Spit back in their face Don't need no key to unlock this door Gonna break down the walls Break out of this bad place Can I play with madness? The prophet stared at his crystal ball Can I play with madness? There's no vision there at all Can I play with madness? The prophet looked at me and laughed at me (ha ha) He said: Can I play with madness? He said you're blind, too blind to see Said you're too blind to see I screamed aloud to the old man I said "Don't lie, don't say you don't know" I say "You'll pay for this mischief In this world or the next" Oh and then he fixed me with a freezing glance And the hell fires raged in his eyes He said "You wanna know the truth son? Lord, I'll tell you the truth Your soul's gonna burn in a lake of fire" Can I play with madness? The prophet stared at his crystal ball Can I play with madness? There's no vision there at all Can I play with madness? The prophet looked at me and laughed at me (ha ha) He said: Can I play with madness? He said you're blind, too blind to see Said you're too blind to see "Listen to me," said the prophet Can I play with madness? The prophet stared at his crystal ball Can I play with madness? There's no vision there at all Can I play with madness? The prophet looked at me and laughed at me (ha ha) He said: Can I play with madness? He said you're blind, too blind to see Said you're too blind to see Can I play with madness?

Prince of Darkness

 Fall for Me Again

All our friends been acting strange Sunshine smiles, even when it rains And they pretend that they don't see the trouble with you and me But they know you're about to leave And even you have played a part Of someone who is still true at heart And do you think that I don't know your love for me turned cold? How sad to see you go But I'm hoping that you'll fall in love again And never look back on what might have been I pray that we will stay the best of friends And in my heart I hope that you will fall for me again But don't say there is no way The things you loved before haven't changed Well, I could find somebody new Who wouldn't tear my heart in two But I'd never get over you, oh no So I'm hoping that you fall in love again And never look back on what might have been I pray that we will stay the best of friends And in my heart I hope that you will fall for me again Oh, in my heart I hope that you will fall for me again I'm hoping that you fall for me again I hope that you will fall for me again Hope that you will fall for me again I hope that you will fall for me again Hope that you will fall for me again I hope that you will fall for me again I hope that you will fall for me again Hope that you will fall

I wanna be somebody (Garden garage)

You say you don't wanna run and hide A face that no one knows And everyone you meet, you're gonna show You're nobody's slave, nobody's chains are holdin' you You hold your fist up high and rule the zoo Oh, you just got to be Up high where the whole world's watchin' me 'Cause I, I got the guts to be somebody To cry out I wanna be somebody, be somebody soon I wanna be somebody, be somebody too I wanna be somebody, be somebody soon I wanna be somebody, be somebody too You say, you don't wanna starve Or take the table crumbs that fall You don't wanna beg or plead at all You don't want no nine to five Your fingers to the bone You don't want to rock pile's bloody stones Oh, you just got to be Up high where the whole world's watchin' me 'Cause I, I got the guts to be somebody To cry out I wanna be somebody, be somebody soon I wanna be somebody, be somebody too I wanna be somebody, be somebody soon I wanna be somebody, be somebody too (I want) shiny cars and dirty money Lotsa rock and roll (I will) live in fame and die in flames I'm never gettin' old I wanna be somebody, be somebody soon I wanna be somebody, be somebody too I wanna be somebody, be somebody soon I wanna be somebody, be somebody too I wanna be somebody, be somebody soon I wanna be somebody, be somebody too I'm gonna be somebody I'm gonna be somebody

End of passion play, crumbling away I'm your source of self-destruction Veins that pump with fear, sucking darkest clear Leading on your death's construction Take me, you will see More is all you need Dedicated to What I do to you Come crawling faster Obey your master Your life burns faster Obey your master, master Master of puppets, I'm pulling your strings Twisting your mind, smashing your dreams Blinded by me, you can't see a thing Just call my name 'cause I'll hear you scream Master, master Master of puppets, I'm pulling your strings Master, master Needlework the way, nevеr you betray Life of death bеcoming clearer Pain monopoly, ritual misery Chop your breakfast on a mirror Take me, you will see More is all you need Dedicated to What I do to you Come crawling faster Obey your master Your life burns faster Obey your master, master Master of puppets, I'm pulling your strings Twisting your mind and smashing your dreams Blinded by me, you can't see a thing Just call my name 'cause I'll hear you scream Master, master Master of puppets, I'm pulling your strings Master, master (Master, master, master, master) Master, master Where's the dreams that I've been after? Master, master You promised only lies Master, master All I hear or see is laughter Master, master Laughing at my cries Fix me Hell is worth all that, natural habitat Just a rhyme without a reason Never-ending maze, drift on numbered days Now your life is out of season I will occupy I will help you die I will run through you Now I rule you too Come crawling faster Obey your master Your life burns faster Obey your master, master Master of puppets, I'm pulling your strings Twisting your mind and smashing your dreams Blinded by me, you can't see a thing Just call my name 'cause I'll hear you scream Master, master Master of puppets, I'm pulling your strings Master, master –and you got, still allowin' that fuckin' I know Melody was like ooh, whoa-oh-nee, ooh-ooh-wee-ooh

Die, Die My Darling

Die, die, die my darling Don't utter a single word Die, die, die my darling Just shut your pretty eyes I'll be seeing you again Yeah, I'll be seeing you in hell So don't cry to me, oh baby Your future's in an oblong box Don't cry to me, oh baby You should have seen it a comin' on Don't cry to me, oh baby Had to know it was in your card Don't cry to me, oh baby Dead end goal, for a dead end girl Don't cry to me, oh baby And now your life drains on that floor Don't cry to me oh baby Die, die, die my darling Don't utter a single word Die, die, die my darling Just shut your pretty mouth I'll be seeing you again, yeh yeah I'll be seeing you in hell Don't cry to me, oh baby Your future's in an oblong box Don't cry to me, oh baby You should have seen it a-comin' on Don't cry to me, oh baby Had to know it was in your card Don't cry to me, oh baby Dead-end goal for a dead-end girl Don't cry to me, oh baby Now your life drains on that floor Don't cry to me, oh baby Die, die, die my darling Don't utter a single word Die, die, die my darling Shut your pretty mouth I'll be seeing you again I'll be seeing you in hell Die, die, die Die, die, die Die, die, die Die My Darling

Loverman

There's a devil waiting outside your door (How much longer?) There's a devil waiting outside your door (How much longer?) And he's bucking and braying and pawing at the floor (How much longer?) And he's howling with pain, crawling up the walls (How much longer?) There's a devil waiting outside your door (How much longer?) And he's weak with evil and broken by the world (How much longer?) And he's shouting your name and asking for more (How much longer?) There's a devil waiting outside your door (How much longer?) Loverman Since the world began Forever, amen 'Til the end of time Take off that dress I'm coming down I'm your loverman 'Cause I am what I am, what I am, what I am, what I am L is for love, baby O is for only you that I do V is for loving virtually everything that you are E is for loving almost everything that you do R is for rape me M is for murder me A is for answering all of my prayers N is for knowing your loverman's going to be the answer to all of yours Loverman 'Til the bitter end While the empires burn down Forever and ever and ever, ever, amen I'm your loverman So help me, baby So help me, baby 'Cause I am what I am, what I am, what I am, what I am I'm your loverman There's a devil crawling along your floor (How much longer?) There's a devil crawling along your floor (How much longer?) With a trembling heart, he's coming through your door (How much longer?) With his straining sex in his jumping paw (How much longer?) There's a devil crawling along your floor (How much longer?) And he's old and he's stupid and he's hungry and he's sore And he's blind and he's lame and he's dirty and he's poor Give me more, give me more, give me more Give me more, give me more, give me more (How much longer?) There's a devil crawling along your floor Loverman, ha ha And here I stand Forever, amen 'Cause I am what I am, what I am, what I am Hey, forgive me, baby My hands are tied And I got no choice, no, no, no, no I got no choice, no choice at all I'll say it again L is for love, baby O is for oh, yes I do V is for virtue so I ain't gonna hurt you E is for even if you want me to R is for render unto me, baby M is for that which is mine A is for any old how, darling and N is for any old time Loverman, yeah, yeah, yeah I got a masterplan To take off your dress And be your man, be your man, yeah Seize the throne, ha ha Seize the mantle Seize that crown, yeah 'Cause I am what I am, what I am, what I am, that's I am I'm your loverman There's a devil laying by your side (How much longer?) There's a devil laying by your side (How much longer?) You might think he's asleep but take a look at his eyes (How much longer?) And he wants you, darling, to be his bride (How much longer?) Yeah, there's a devil laying by your side (How much longer?) Loverman Loverman Loverman I'll be your loverman 'Til the end of the time 'Til the empires burn down Forever, amen I'll be your loverman, I'll be your loverman I'm your loverman, I'm your loverman Yeah, I'm your loverman, I'm your loverman Loverman I'm your loverman I'm your loverman I'm your loverman Yeah, I'm your loverman Yes, I'm your loverman Loverman Loverman Loverman, forever, amen Loverman (How much longer?)

There Is a Light That Never Goes Out

Take me out tonight Where there's music and there's people And they're young and alive Driving in your car I never, never want to go home Because I haven't got one Anymore Take me out tonight Because I want to see people And I want to see life Driving in your car Oh please, don't drop me home Because it's not my home, it's their home And I'm welcome no more And if a double-decker bus Crashes into us To die by your side Is such a heavenly way to die And if a ten tonne truck Kills the both of us To die by your side Well, the pleasure, the privilege is mine Take me out tonight Take me anywhere I don't care, I don't care, I don't care And in the darkened underpass I thought, 'Oh God, my chance has come at last!' But then a strange fear gripped me And I just couldn't ask Take me out tonight Oh take me anywhere I don't care, I don't care, I don't care Driving in your car I never, never want to go home Because I haven't got one Oh, I haven't got one And if a double-decker bus Crashes into us To die by your side Is such a heavenly way to die And if a ten tonne truck Kills the both of us To die by your side Well, the pleasure, the privilege is mine Oh, there is a light and it never goes out There is a light and it never goes out There is a light and it never goes out There is a light and it never goes out There is a light and it never goes out There is a light and it never goes out There is a light and it never goes out There is a light and it never goes out...

San Francisco Symphony  Fade to black

Killing Time

Sound of gunfire comes through the night Killing and hatred, it's a terrible sight Reports come in of a heavy attack Message received, we're moving back Preparations are made for the journey back Hints on survival, supplies are packed No more nights in this eternal hell Destination is simple, we move out (Killing time) your life's on the line (Killing time) your turn to kill (Killing time) what'd ya say? (Killing time) the killing time Ingenuity needed to keep us alive No time for cowardice, kill and survive Like a killer kid with a switch-blade knife Nasty word, he'll take your life The silence is over, they attack again Killing and hatred drive me insane Reports come in of a heavy attack Message received, we're moving back (Killing time) your life's on the line (Killing time) your turn to kill (Killing time) what'd ya say? (Killing time) the killing time Sound of gunfire comes through the night Killing and hatred, it's a terrible sight Reports come in of a heavy attack Message received, we're moving back Ingenuity needed to keep us alive No time for cowardice, kill and survive Like a killer kid with a switch-blade knife Nasty word, he'll take your life (Killing time) your life's on the line (Killing time) your turn to kill (Killing time) what'd ya say? (Killing time) ah, killing time

The Prince

Now I see his face, I see his smile Such a lonely place, no golden mile Eyes tell of morbid tales, of his black heart His deeds through ages past, tell of his part See his face, see his smile Time to die Yo-ooh, wo-ooh, noo Angel from below, change my dreams I want for glory's hour, for wealth's esteem I wish to sell my soul, to be reborn I wish for earthly riches, don't want no crown of thorns See his face, see his smile Time to die Wo-ooh, oo-ooh, noo I was born a fool, don't want to stay that way Devil take my soul, with diamonds you repay I don't care for heaven, so don't you look for me to cry And I will burn in hell, from the day I die See his face, see his smile Time to die Wo-ooh, no-ooh, no

So What

So fucking what? 

So what? So what? And I've been here, I've been there I've been every fucking where So what? So what? So what? Well, who cares? Who cares what you do? Yeah, who cares? Who cares about you? You, you, you, you Well, I've fucked the queen, I've fucked hell Well, who cares? Who cares what you do? And, who cares? Who cares about you? You, you, you, you And I've drunk that, I've drunk this So what? So what? I've fucked this, I've fucked that I've even fucked a school girl's twat So what? So what? So what? So what, you boring little fuck? Well, who cares? Who cares what you do? And, who cares? Who cares about you? You, you, you, you, you So fucking what? Yeah!

Love, Reign O'er Me Song by The Who 

Only love can make it rain The way the sand is kissed by the sea Only love can make it rain Like the sweat of lovers layin' in the fields Love, reign o'er me Love, reign o'er me Rain on me, rain on me Only love can bring the rain That makes you yearn to the sky Only love can bring the rain That falls like tears from on high Love, reign o'er me Rain on me, rain on me Love, reign o'er me Rain on me, rain on me On the dry and dusty road The nights we spend apart alone I need to get back home to cool, cool rain I can't sleep, and I lay, and I think The night is hot and black as ink Woo, oh God, I need a drink of cool, cool rain Love, reign o'er me Reign o'er me, o'er me, o'er me, woah Love, reign o'er me, o'er me Love