7 Bells

Stockholm

Miss You

Lost inside a room The priest at the door with news Said you were gone now I knew Oooh my world was broken in two I prayed that you were here To hold my heart I'd hide myself in your bed And cry myself numb Oh god I miss you Tell me can you hear me Oh god I miss you Can't scream and I can't speak Show me now Will I ever be free from you Lost inside my head I close my eyes and fled No pain no gain No death no more I drown myself in flesh There's no way out No way how Do you even know me now Ooh, I finally see how amazing Can you hear me now Oh god I miss you Tell me can you hear me Oh god I miss you I can't scream and I can't speak Show me how Will I ever be free from you Oh god I miss you Tell me can you hear me Oh god I miss you I can't scream and I can't speak Show me now Will I ever be free from you Oh god I miss you Why did you go and leave me alone And now I'm running away from my home No they'll never know I'm gone They don't know how Know how Can you hear me now Ooh can you see somehow Ooh here's to new love From your great beyond Can you hear me now Oh god I miss you Tell me can you hear me Oh god I miss you I can't scream and I can't speak Show me now Will I ever be free from you Oh god I miss you Tell me can you hear me Oh god I miss you I can't scream and I can't speak Tell me how Will I ever be free from you

Sleeping (In The Fire)

Touch, touch in the flame's desire Feeling the pain's denial And your finger's in the fire Look, look in the candlelight See in the flame of life And my spell is our lie Taste the love The Lucifer's magic that makes you numb The passion and all the pain are one You're sleeping in the fire Taste the love The Lucifer's magic that makes you numb You feel what it does and you're drunk on love You're sleeping in the fire I gaze as the flame and fire burn And cry out the name of which I yearn Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh Taste the love The Lucifer's magic that makes you numb The passion and all the pain are one You're sleeping in the fire Taste the love The Lucifer's magic that makes you numb You feel what it does and you're drunk on love You're sleeping in the fire Taste the love The Lucifer's magic that makes you numb The passion and all the pain are one You're sleeping in the fire Taste the love The Lucifer's magic that makes you numb

I don't need no doctor

I don't need no doctor 'Cause I know what's ailin' me I don't need no doctor 'Cause I know what's ailin' me, yes, I do All I need is my baby You don't know I'm in misery I don't need no doctor I don't need no doctor I don't need no doctor My prescription tells me that I don't need no doctor I don't need no doctor I don't need no doctor My prescription tells me that I don't need no doctor I don't need no doctor All I need is my baby You don't know [Incomprehensible] I don't need no doctor I don't need no doctor I don't need no doctor I don't need no doctor Well, the doctor said, I need rest He put me on the critical list Keeping me safe from harm All I need is her sweet charm He gave me a medical lotion that wouldn't do Ooh, yeah, my motion, oh, yeah I don't need no doctor I don't need no doctor I don't need no doctor I don't need no doctor I don't need no doctor I don't need no doctor

Scream

Was I your one, gonna love Incense rising from your flame To worship one and to run Your gods of war are yours to blame 'Cause I want you to scream! I want you to scream my name, Come on and scream! I want you to scream my name Come on and scream if you love me and make it bleed if you want me, Here comes heartbraker taking your heart You gonna cry if you want me You gonna lie if you love me Ooh, Get up! Get up! Get up! Get out! 'cause I don't want to know Do you believe, do you see the graven idol of your love And pray to me and to feed and bow down to your dangerous God 'Cause I want you to scream! I want you to scream my name Come on and scream! I want you to scream my name Come on and scream if you love me and make it bleed if you want me. Ooh, here comes heartbraker taking your heart You gonna cry if you want me, You gonna lie if you love me Ooh, Get up! Get up! Get up! Get out! 'cause I don't want to know No lies, Ooh, no lies for you to feed All we touch turns to dust, so helplessly No eyes, oh no eyes could never see No broken idols of mad passions make believe No! No! No! Ooh, scream my name (scream, scream, scream) Come on and scream if you love me and make it bleed if you want me Ooh, here comes heartbraker taking your heart You gonna cry if you want me You gonna lie if you love me Get up! Get up! Get up! Get out! 'cause I don't want to know Your eyes, no your eyes could never see 

How long you gonna wait forever, idols of stone listen never NO!

The ultimate word

NGR

Sam´s land...

Visible

Definitely the being has changed. Got dropped, unconscious and slapped. It´s now under the influence of it. Behaving and damaged. However not totally destroyed. There are still signs of the being. The childish being, the girl and the woman. A woman that´s now throwing and spitting things out in ways like they´ve never been said and done before. The consequence of present events. Cause someone have been there to hit, to wreak havoc on the being. Talks between people, telling this and that, fire wood to the mind. Also the use of substances drops, Scientology and fireworks that hit and burn the body and by consequence the mind. Making the mind, imputing things in the mind. Buzzing and burning the mind. A being somehow innocent, somehow not so innocent, but that is part of being human. Flesh, weakness, fantasies, dreams and desires going into the wild, perdition and sin. Who doesn´t like one drink or two, to read and to get read´

And now that some things come to knowledge, come to light, namely, knowing what was and what´s going on around the closed circle. Knowing now that there was an unknown presence, that many things were and are set along the way on the journeys. Travel guidance, maps, locations, accommodations, communities, people, characters, figures, artists and stages. Activities, entertainment, fun, food, drinks, substances, Scientology, fireworks and social channels. Above all, the stupidity and the sickness of their job, Scientology and their show and entertainment must go on. It´s what´s important for them and not the being. Being that they´re destroying. The person, the mind and the intelligence, culture and art, work, reading and writing, the book of travels, fantasies, dreams and adventures. The personal files, the diary, the book, maybe a bestseller, the photos and videos, maybe a beautiful blockbuster. I ́m sure it is. It is a beautiful being, beautiful.

Having me on their way and doing my little things it's not within their interests and work. I say and do things that they don´t want to be on the street. So, they have to bring me and things down. They want their own show, even if it´s stolen from me and other people. 

There are a lot of thieves in Hollywood and in the media. Thieves of stories, of art and hearts. They do everything, even if they have to hit, beat and destroy someone´s body and soul. 

However things were and are made smoothly and always without bad intentions. A drop and a firework here and there. And this is what keeps the innocents there, the high stage, substances drops, fireworks and porn is higher than anyone and how they hit to do their job. All the things that have been happening in the circus and the consequences they have caused in the being. The being that got unconscious, out of the path and own mind, that got lost in some occasions. The being may not be lost forever, but it is not far from being lost for life. Butt it´s visible that the being has been hit and is hurt.

Many things changed, namely the person´s being. The behavior, the posture, the way of being, the gesticulation, the way of speaking, the way the words come out of the voice, some are still there and come from deep inside, from the inside of the being, tenderness and sweetness, soul and heart, yes, the other words come from outside, they are words that have been accumulated with the events of recent times. The being was beaten, slapped, unconscious, inconstant, confused, bewildered, without possessions, without peace and quiet, insecure. They are words of loneliness, of lost and loss, of hunger and despair, harsh, of anguish and anger, of manifestation, and which are spoken and spat out. Mostly recently.

What didn´t change´

Well, the way of living is the same. Is it good? I don´t think it is. Living a nomade life, being lonely and homeless. Without a companion, without daily care and love and without a home to live. Bla bla bla, I want to do some things before I get burned, damaged, destroyed, killed and rotten.

  The tools.  

Urine, poop and blood.

Photographs and papers

Medical exames

Eyes, x-ray heart tests, urine....

Plumbing, water, oils, shower gel, shampoo, detergents, perfumes...

Substances, Scientology and fireworks. Set ups, traps, drugs and porn, photography and video. Imprisonment and blackmail. Booking and social service. Doing what´s told to say and to do. In the beginning things are not so bad, are done smoothly but in time things will get dirty, drugs, abuse, violence and disgrace, some die.

Can´t escape from it.

Escape´ 

It come from who´

I wonder who wants to runaway, to escape and be on his own, alone and in own thoughts´

Running thoughts...

Running away from everything and everyone.

Running away from one place to go to another trap and to fall.

Are you really running away´

 Are you alone´

No. you´re not.

Why you keep being there´

What do you like and want´

You can´t escape.

You just stay there, cause you don´t really want to runaway to escape from where you´re.

Do you need protection and want me to protect you´

Those there with you´ Your friends there´ You have many friends. Do they protect you´ You´re still there, Why´

Why should I protect you´ I don´t care about you. If you´re here or there. Alone or with someone. If you´re doing this or that. Do I care? 

NO, I DON´T CARE.

You are not sweet, interesting, beautiful and I don´t like love you, why should I care and protect you´ You are a child, a girl and a woman and all of a sudden your childest being turns into an adult, uncontrolled behavior and ferocity.

He doesn´t care, he loves ice cream. Everything else is just an illusion. unreal, a fantasy and a dream.

All the way.

NGR

You need many things. You are a needy girl. Being alone is not good for anybody. You need a friend, more than it, a companion, a lot of care and love.

The bath wire

Before doing something strange everything must be clean and the hands should be washed.

And he got the proves, I can´t charge him. 

Hiding things

G*t kissed

it blew the mind

The collection

You asked me if I want a bone.

Beautiful, you are the bone I love and want.

You´re going to sweat, you gonna need many clothes and do lots of outfit changes. Low temperature, dressed in a warm suit, walking and pulling a sled... 

Odyssey´

Are you travelling alone to the Artic´

If Odyssey breaks somewhere what you gonna do´

Phone me.

If the heater breaks what you gonna do´

Do nothing, just stay there waiting to fall asleep. I´ll be in your dreams. In your coldest dream.

Are you going to be alone in the Artic´

No, after you arrive there you´ll meet with people. But until then´

You said that Vilk doesn´t know what he´s expecting. Do you´

Notes and thoughts from your last Youtube video.

I´m writing things, some you said, others I´m loving you and just writing things. Thoughts, points of views, ideas...

I could be here writing other things instead of this, even if most of the things that I´m writing are right and true. Maybe there some thoughts too. Something here and there.

Only you can tell if the things that I wrote above are right or wrong. If I´m right or wrong, if it is true or not´

Get ready. 

No time to waste. For me I was already there. Butt I know I´ll never be there. I´m going nowhere. I´ll be here doing nothing.

You didn´t believe in religion, in God, now you do`

What or who made you believe´ 

OH GOD

Please don´t scream and cry if I slap your arse. 

NGR

Who is the God to who you´re talking with.