N G R 16: I surrender, but I leave in sorrow.

I love this place, you. I leave this place in sorrow, I surrender, ´cause I sense that you don´t love me anymore.

So quiet and pure is this place, this being of yours, beautiful from the mind to the body of a being as beautiful as you are.

Tonight I light a candle, tomorrow in the late of the afternoon I´m going to the river. I will be there, sitting on one of its banks for an indefinite time, only the gods will know. Think about the good and beautiful things in life. Say a word or two to the heavens, pray and sing to nature, the nature of life, before I leave. Then, then I will let myself be carried away by the waters of the river. I don't know where I'm going, where the waters and the Gods will take me but I think the waters and the Gods know where they're going to take me. Away from the goddess, from this beautiful and wonderful place that I love, you.

Between the daylight and night I´ll be gone.

In the misery of the day, so the day will be for me, forever, the day in which I departed, in which I left you at your mercy, by your own will, by your own will.

From the misery of the day to such a distant place, I now live in other place and without you.

I fell in love with someone who until yesterday I thought didn't exist.

I love this place, you.

Goodbye

Jonna

Time

I sense that you recover, stabilized part of your soul and body.

I sense it in the tone of your voice and the way you are speaking and moving,

I see it in you. It´s like a rejuvenation and rebloom that happened in your face, in your cheeks and lips. Your thought and smile are somewhere else, not where they were yesterday.

Yet, your eyes are still being hurt. Invaded by evil lights, inside and outside the wooden cabin, by shadows of ghosts that wander around you, by heads and faces, bodies of humans, of strangers and vampires.

Do you wanna know where the waters and the Gods took me?

To the same place where you are today.

Days before my surrender, before I left this place, you, you had surrendered and left this place, me.

We live in hell, not in the heavens but we live together and love.

Swords In The Wind

I surrender my soul, Odin hear my call, One day I'll sit beside your throne, In Valhalla's great hall. Like so many before me, I'll die with honour and pride. The right of a warrior, Forever to fight by your side. Send a sign, raise the sail, Wave a last goodbye. Destiny is calling, Immortality be mine. Call the witch to cast the runes, Weave a magic spell. We who die in battle are borne, Not for Heaven, not for Hell. We are sons of Odin, The fire we burn inside, Is the legacy of warrior kings, Who reign above in the sky. I will lead the charge, My sword into the wind. Sons of Odin fight, To die and live again. Viking ships cross the sea, In cold wind and rain. Sail into the black of night, Magic stars our guiding light. Today the blood of battle, Upon my weapons will never dry. Many I'll send into the ground, Laughing as they die. We are sons of Odin, The fire we burn inside, Is the legacy of warrior kings, Who reign above in the sky. I will lead the charge, My sword into the wind. Sons of Odin fight, To die and live again. Viking ships cross the sea, In cold wind and rain. Sail into the black of night, Magic stars our guiding light. Place my body on a ship, And burn it in the sea. Let my spirit rise, Valkyries, carry me. Take me to Valhalla, Where my brothers wait for me. Fire burning to the sky, My spirit will never die. I will lead the charge, My sword into the wind. Sons of Odin fight, To die and live again. Viking ships cross the sea, In cold wind and rain. Sail into the black of night, Magic stars our guiding light.

Waters

[Christopher Lee] Powers of the universe did sire a son... He was baptized by fire, water, earth, and sky... From darkness, he rose up in triumph To ascend the throne of light, And he alone shall for ever be known As the King of Kings...

Eric Adams] I enter this world born under a sign of infinite light, And here I shall dwell. I now understand... All that I am shall live in my command...

You there talking... Me here talking...

Like a crossroad, staying here, in a doubt, a heartfelt doubt, swaying, unbalanced in the botton of my heart.

Like a crossroad, staying there, in a doubt, a heartfelt doubt. You there swaying, unbalanced in the botton of your heart.

To start or not to start a new chapter?

Where am I and who´s here with me?

What is it for me? What do I live and what does this place and this person means to me?

Is this what I want for myself, for my life, what I love, want and desire?

The doubt, your doubts is in love. In what you like, love and want.

You have been there talking about things, about your life.

This is what I am talking about. What you have been talking about lately. But I keep going around things, you keep going around things. On the one hand you want to go, you want other things, other kind of living, other human being, other love by your side. On the other hand there are things that you live and like. Which is what´s keeping me/you here/there, the place and the person but in within doubts. Without a doubt part of that person´s flame faded. Time does these things, time make things and people to fade. The reason why I´m here talking... in one of the crossroads I´ve been through in my life. It´s time of decision, to make a decision. Should I leave or should I stay? Start a new chapter or not? It´s about it, in what I´m at and where I´ve been for a while.

Excitement, at the same time, so I stayed, I don´t really know where?

Putting aside the excitement... understood.

You and I

I found the clarity that I was looking for. Have I been truthful to myself and to the other person?

Yes, no I haven´t been truthful.

I want him to leave, see his footsteps leaving by themselves. I suppose it will be better this way. Or it will be me that will leave.

We do with what we have, if we don´t have we do nothing, because there´s nothing that can be done if we don´t have nothing. Without nothing you can´t do much.

You have the necessary means to do whatever you want. You can do whatever you want and whenever you want. You can be and go wherever and whenever you want to be and go.

If you didn´t had means what would be your life, what would you do? For sure not being here and there and traveling butt living in a place that could be affordable to you and counting your coins every single day.

You have a place to live, a beautiful place.

You have a job/work. You live from it, from your work.

Your occupations are mostly creative things. You like to create art. You like painting, you paint, photographie, filming, editing videos... Jewelry, nature, travels. Most of your time is dedicated to it. You live in a place, in a house and you would like to do and live things there, but all your occupations and work do not leave you much space and time to devote yourself to the place and the house where you live.

Listening and feeling

Without knowing what it is and what may come and be if I keep listening you talking and feeling you this way.

The love for you, i love you. Listening and feeling you.

Sometimes is good to be alone but don´t make it as an escape from something that may be not well in your life, because is much better to be with someone than to be alone.

When you question things, good or bad things you can always talk with someone, listen what others may think and say. When you share your thoughts, ideas, visions and perspectives with someone is better than being alone and talking to yourself, to your own or to a ghost of you. Alone, this way you might not think and see everything that you could and should have thought, seen and know.

Between loves, cheers and some tears along the times the waters of the river run in its course to de sea. Love, drinks and tears have their paths and their destinies, but not everyone meets and goes to the same place, Loves, cheers and tears. You there sitting by the river, seeing the sun setting behind the mountains, chilly in thoughts, taking you away, not knowing what to think, do and where to go.