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She´s not getting on. Doing it. Didn´t. She´s asking it. 

A kiss.

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Please don´t smile.

Thank you.

The wilderness. It´s a wild world. A world of predators. Of animals. So wonderful.

To get her high, to eat the feast, to engaged and trappe her, to shoot her down.

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A Forest

Gillette

Come closer and see See into the trees Find the girl While you can Come closer and see See into the dark Just follow your eyes Just follow your eyes I hear her voice Calling my name The sound is deep In the dark I hear her voice And start to run Into the trees Into the trees Into the trees Suddenly I stop But I know it's too late I'm lost in a forest All alone The girl was never there It's always the same I'm running towards nothing Again and again and again and again...

There is something here. Visible in her eyes.

She was in the garden under someone´s car and beyond the gate a street. Four white walls and a window between a red curtain. On a temperate morning the sun shone through the window. An handmade carpet, two pillows, a sheet and flowers on the floor. Two empty glasses and a bottle. 

Shit, she loves to do this things to me.

Her voice tone. Her eyes. She was shaking inside. She was nervous. Her mind was blowing, a chemical substance, A lost night morning. She seems to be scared. Scared to breathe. She´s sending a sign.

KiSSES

Good morning.

Don´t know what program did she put on hold butt she sang to me.

Sing to me.

She is beautiful.

There something here too. She looks happy.

After words. I don´t know where she went, what she did and where she woke up butt definitely her voice comes from the inside of her body and of her mind. Her psychological state was full of energy, harmonious and happy. Shit. 

Damn Christianity. Damn it.

I will get on the plane if she wants and wishes it.

I would love to be with her today, tomorrow, after and after. To eternity.

KiSSES

I don´t know if this video that she post has something to do with my message or with something else.

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The Lovecats

We move like cagey tigers Oh, we couldn't get closer than this The way we walk, the way we talk The way we stalk, the way we kiss We slip through the streets while everyone sleeps Getting bigger and sleeker and wider and brighter We bite and scratch and scream all night

 Let's go and throw all the songs we know Into the sea, you and me All the years and no one heard I'll show you in spring, it's a treacherous thing "We missed you", hissed the lovecats "We missed you", hissed the lovecats We're so wonderfully, wonderfully Wonderfully, wonderfully pretty Oh, you know that I'd do anything for you We should have each other to tea, huh? We should have each other with cream Then curl up in the fire and sleep for a while It's the grooviest thing, it's the perfect dream Into the sea, you and me All the years and no one heard I'll show you in spring, it's a treacherous thing "We missed you", hissed the lovecats "We missed you", hissed the lovecats "We missed you", hissed the lovecats "We missed you", hissed the lovecats Yes We're so wonderfully, wonderfully Wonderfully, wonderfully pretty Oh, you know that I'd do anything for you We should have each other to dinner, huh? We should have each other with cream Then curl up in the fire, get for a while It's the grooviest thing, it's the perfect dream Hand in hand is the only way to land And always the right way 'round Not broken in pieces, like hated little meeces How could we miss someone as dumb as this? (How could we miss someone as dumb as this?) "We missed you", hissed the lovecats "We missed you" "We missed you" I love you, let's go Oh, solid gold Lovecats Lovecats (lovecats) How could we miss someone as dumb as this? (Miss someone as dumb as this) ("We missed you", hissed the lovecats) oh ("We missed you", hissed the lovecats) the lovecats, yes, the lovecats The lovecats, lovecats Lovecats, love, oh, lovecats

LULLABY

On candy stripe legs the Spiderman comes Softly through the shadow of the evenin' sun Stealin' past the windows of the blissfully dead Looking for the victim shivering in bed Searchin' out fear in the gathering gloom And suddenly a movement in the corner of the room And there is nothing I can do when I realize with fright That the Spiderman is having me for dinner tonight Quietly he laughs and shaking his head Creeps closer now, closer to the foot of the bed And softer than shadow and quicker than flies His arms are all around me and his tongue in my eyes Be still be calm be quiet now my precious boy Don't struggle like that or I will only love you more For it's much too late to get away or turn on the light The Spiderman is having you for dinner tonight And I feel like I'm being eaten By a thousand million shivering furry holes And I know that in the morning I will wake up in the shivering cold And the Spiderman is always hungry

                                         NGR16

Close to Me

I've waited hours for this I've made myself so sick I wish I'd stayed asleep today I never thought this day would end I never thought tonight could ever be This close to me Just try to see in the dark Just try to make it work To feel the fear before you're here I make the shapes come much too close I pull my eyes out, hold my breath and wait Until I shake But if I had your faith Then I could make it safe and clean Oh, if only I was sure That my head on the door was a dream I've waited hours for this I've made myself so sick I wish I'd stayed asleep today I never thought this day would end I never thought tonight could ever be This close to me But if I had your face Then I could make it safe and clean Oh, if only I was sure That my head on the door was a dream

Time to get the office and the accounts in order.

Alone, no girlfriend, no wife? Divorced? No kids.

Travelling, car, stays and food expenses.

No job? Financial resource? Bank account. Resource? Service? Treasury department? Drugs sell?

Is Sam paying his bills and hers? The social service?

Service sheet at the table.

Time to get the office and the accounts in order.

Health, personal care, well being, work, lifestyle, life for two, home... travelling.

Alone, homeless, without pair, casual friendships and relationships. Without a home, a roof. Living a nomade life. Without destination, fate uncertain...

Drinking drunkenness inconscience. Shot down, sleeping deep. Laptop files. Personal data.

Shut it down. Secure it, before you get drunk, go to sleep or go somewhere.

What da f are you doing there´

I guess yesss. Reading and getting read.

Do you´

Are you aching for the blade? That's okay, we're insured Are you aching for the grave? That's okay, we're insured We're getting away with it, all messed up Getting away with it, all messed up That's the living Daniel's saving Grace She's out in deep water I hope he's a good swimmer Daniel's plays his Ace Deep inside his temple He knows how to serve her We're getting away with it, all messed up Getting away with it, all messed up That's the living We're getting away with it, all messed up Getting away with it, all messed up That's the living Daniel drinks his weight Drinks like Richard Burton Dance like John Travolta, now Daniel's saving Grace He was all but drowning Now they live like dolphins We're getting away with it, all messed up Getting away with it, all messed up That's the living We're getting away with it, all messed up Getting away with it, all messed up That's the living We're getting away with it, all messed up Getting away with it, all messed up That's the living We're getting away with it, all messed up Getting away with it, all messed up That's the living We're getting away with it We're getting away with it That's the living That's the living

Are you messing with me´

Who messed you up´

Who´s there to messe you up´

Fast food, drinks, markets, restaurants, bars.

Pictures of you

I've been looking so long at these pictures of you That I almost believe that they're real I've been living so long with my pictures of you That I almost believe that the pictures Are all I can feel Remembering you standing quiet in the rain As I ran to your heart to be near And we kissed as the sky fell in Holding you close How I always held close in your fear Remembering you running soft through the night You were bigger and brighter and whiter than snow And screamed at the make-believe Screamed at the sky And you finally found all your courage to let it all go Remembering you fallen into my arms Crying for the death of your heart You were stone white, so delicate Lost in the cold You were always so lost in the dark Remembering you, how you used to be Slow drowned, you were angels So much more than everything Hold for the last time then slip away quietly Open my eyes, but I never see anything If only I'd thought of the right words I could have held on to your heart If only I'd thought of the right words I wouldn't be breaking apart All my pictures of you Looking so long at these pictures of you But I never hold on to your heart Looking so long for the words to be true But always just breaking apart My pictures of you There was nothing in the world That I ever wanted more Than to feel you deep in my heart There was nothing in the world That I ever wanted more Than to never feel the breaking apart My pictures of you

Self exposure. Wilderness, cabins... and beaches...

Pictures of you that are now at work. Black magic fireworks.

Detergents, gel duche, shampoo, perfumes, make up, oils.

piss poop blood

pictures, papers, chucks

Five senses

Black Magic

NGR Slayer

Cursed black magic night We've been struck down Down in this Hell Spells surround me day and night Stricken by the force of evil light The force of evil light Cast under his spell Blinding my eyes Twisting my mind Fight to resist the evil inside Captive of a force of Satan's might A force of Satan's might Fighting the curse Break it, I must Laughing in sorrow Crying in lust My strength slips fast, soon I must fall Victim of fortune, my sources grow small 

Life slips away as demons come forth Death takes my hand and captures my soul

NGR